HazelI look into those eyes, what I see scares me.I don't find what I need,I find reality.Conditional love fills my Father's eyes.Love, only applicable when I am what is wanted,what was imagined,and what is expected.And I'm not.I'll love him,
when he can't love me.
Midnight Ravings of Love and LossI feel nothing.Literally. Nothing.I have no reason to go to sleep in the evening,I have no reason to get up in the morning.He did this.He changed me.He was at the center of the best moment of my young lifeand when everything I knew came crashing down, with him to blamehe helped me rebuild.His soft voice and vulgar humor sustained me.His eyes, his hair, his body seduced me.His laugh, his mere existence brought me happinessI owe him everything.He changed me.He was my reason to go to sleep in the evening,He was the reason to get up in the morning.He was my world.He forced me to feelHe made me feel lovefeel p
RememberingThe worst part is remembering.Remembering the feel of his shirt,the sound of his laugh,the roll of his eyes when Michelle Bachman opens her mouth,the security of his embrace,the warmth of his unique love,the fact that he misses me too.That's the killer.
I TriedI did my damnedest to forgetabout the way he made me feel.That, uh-holy amalgamation of sickness and happinessI had come to callnormal.I tried so hard,so hard to get overthat remarkable beauty.Those compassionate eyes,that trim physique,have stayed with me.Against my will,I continueto love him.
Here he lies.Here lies the hypocrite, shocked and ashamed at the next generation.Saddened by their exploits, their debauchery,their experience.Disgusted by their stupidity and judging their changes.He stops, and thinks about himself.One year ago.What that person say to the one now?Would he be surprised?Yes.Would he be disappointed?Probably.Would he be upset, confused, scared?Without a doubt.Here lies the hypocrite, passing judgement till the cows come in.
Who I am: A LGBT interview.1. How long have you known you are part of the LGBT community? Well... I had had suspicions about it for years, but I only accepted it May of 2011. (18 years old)2. Was it a struggle (emotionally) for you at the beginning? In the years prior, oh ya. I spent many a night praying and hoping that these thoughts would go away. But the second i said it my life changed instantly.3. How did you start to discover your sexuality? (Example, thoughts, feelings
ex) I had always been curious about other guys, but there was one guy that changed it all. He was he first perso